Thursday, August 15, 2013

Golden Gate Park




We have made our way into San Francisco.
All around us is hushed.
Those sounds do not sing,
your eyes are not blue.

Hold my hand Reptile.
Walk our storied path to Golden Gate Park
and try to remember
when I ever loved you.


Wednesday, July 24, 2013

The Game

The Devil resides between layers of chocolate cake,
moist, yielding, the promise of melting in my mouth.
Hunkered down in creamy, dark ganache,
he knows I am weak.

He lurks down dark alleys and lonely streets,
shadowy, making noises unseen.
Dredging up feelings of fear and uncertainty,
I hesitate, cower, and turn toward more traveled roads.

He waits beyond steep mountain curves,
sheer and achingly beautiful.
I grip the door of the car harder, looking straight ahead
as he laughs at the scenery I have missed.

It is all a game to him,
To overcome or be overcome.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

The Devil


I sometimes feel the Devil
rides across Planet Earth                                                     
looking for points of easy entry.
Like a hacker probing the system for flaws               
looking for the unlocked backdoor,
Diablo works day and night
to access our vulnerabilities.

I, have been made dimpled from all my probes.
Skin stretched from point to point
in a constellation of scars.
Just as one puncture heals another one appears.
Satan knows well my systems peculiarities,
and exploits them quite elegantly, quite easily.


The world seems to be splatters and dots of red
and I wonder when enough blood will be spilt.
Attracted to weakness, The Prince of Darkness
(seeking his own safe place just as mortals do)
flies to the house with the Crimson porch light,
crouches in the corner, and silently waits for me to walk by.




Friday, July 12, 2013

Downstream

She told me she was a stone,
smooth and tumbled,
worn down by steady currents so gentle, yet insistent and powerful.

Her crags and crevices abraded away,
bashed and broken,
pounded by constant forces so strong, yet glacially slow.

Until one day there was nothing,
no protrusions to catch on, to wedge her in place,
and she was smooth,
tumbling endlessly downstream.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Flor de Fango

you will be covered with shame


Break Down—Break Through

DNA shards sloughing off
through our sojourn in Obidiah

With my nest not set in the stars
But in the rich Spanish Fango

Sephardi in my bloodlines with
A kink in my spine to prove it

We travel to our home of destiny
My little Flor de Fango
My sweet Mud Flower

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Fantasy

Tell me your fantasies, he whispered,
brushing a whisp of hair,
rich and glossy as honey dates,
away from her eyes.

Tell me your fantasies, he whispered,
tracing the line of her arm,
warmed and tanned by the desert sun,
with his finger.

Tell me your fantasies, he whispered,
gazing into her eyes,
blue and refreshing as the life-giving water of an oasis.

Tell me your fantasies, he whispered,
and I will tell you mine.


Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Pouilly Fuisse






We have spent the day at the beach
(my lover—my mistress—my paramour)
our towels merely feet from the tide
as close as we can get is what we want

We lay side by side and fall asleep
(the heat—the sounds—the mist)
the tides creep closer to our slumber
bodies paralyzed by liquid dreams

Washing out to sea with no cares
(divorce—family feuds—sunburns)
floating on the  endless sea grass
we finally crack open the Pouilly Fuisse

Drink my love, drink
and I will drink to thee


Monday, May 27, 2013

At the shore

Firmness
Standing the water's edge
scrunching toes digging in to gritty sand
grains scratching, itching
bringing my attention to unnoticed places

I dig deeper
marveling
at the absurd firmness
of countless grains of sand,
a million acrobats
balancing on one another's shoulders,
suspending me,
above what I don't know

The water rushes in to take its turn
swirling
enticing my acrobats
to abandon me, one by one

I feel them leave
as my feet sink down
deeper
lowering me,
toward what I don't know

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Kite flying in the Spring of 1968

I am ten years old
and it is time to fly a kite

For what small change
I can squeeze out from
the small slit of my fathers
plastic change purse
I can fly a kite

Running to Parade Market
I make a list:
Kite
String
Stick
Rags

My sense of pride grows
as my kite fly's higher and higher
with each tug of the
long white string

Thursday, May 16, 2013

The Kite

The kite soared,
danced and tumbled,
Teased by an erratic breeze.

Tail up, tail down,
Not unlike the four year old
at the end of its string.

Mommy, she cried. Look!
The kite
is flying
me.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Conception



One conceived in ignorance
One conceived in trust
One conceived in love
Two conceived in lust



Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Child's Play

I want sleep, I can't sleep, I want sleep, I can't sleep
I want sleep, I can't sleep, I want sleep, I can't sleep
I want sleep, I can't sleep, I want sleep, I can't sleep
I want sleep, I can't sleep, I want sleep, I can't sleep
I want sleep, I can't sleep, I want sleep, I can't sleep
I want sleep, I can't sleep, I want sleep, I can't sleep
I want sleep, I can't sleep, I want sleep, I can't sleep
I want sleep, I can't sleep, I want sleep, I can't sleep
I want sleep, I can't sleep, I want sleep, I can't sleep

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Trefoil Crown



will you take a walk with me
slow past the future
a ramble to an alternative universe
not yet hatched
sometimes it might be best to close your eyes
or cover your ears
but having been there and having learned the lessons of fear
i will hold your hand
i will sooth your brow
and when you want to scream i will say:
shush, shush everything is ok

will you take a walk with me
slow past the future

i am not scared she trumpets
the past
the present
the future
is my trefoil and i wear it as my crown

there is an ambulance wailing in the background
and as she runs down the street
away from me, just away from me
and holds tightly to her trefoil crown
she flashes out a thrill charged smile
at no one i can see

It's Time

          Counting hours, minutes
                                  A walk on a razor's edge
                    The birth of a child

Monday, April 29, 2013

Sidewalk Shrine



Someone has set up a sidewalk shrine
next to the pharmacy on Agua Fria Street

An Orphic Abuelita sleeps there every night
beneath crocheted blankets and handmade quilts
Teddy Bears and metallic balloons
sympathy cards, birthday cards
plastic flowers and real flowers
faded photographs
frozen tears
magical wishes
alleged confessions
false sympathy and
enough regret to keep her warm until morning

All this piled on top of one frail aged woman

                                          who dreams of flesh and blood

                                                          while lightly touching an empty yellowed cradle